I´m living in Colombia, however I´d like to hold this conversations on english language, in the paragraphs below I will explain why I´m proposing this requirement...
You will realize that this is not my native language. 
I have held meetings with a bioenergetic physician, he is a well known professional in his area and he has recommended to me using this language as a therapy...
 I haven´t  been able to reveal him the extension and depth of my adictions so that I just have sketched my sexual trends...The situation became complicated because of I have held these meetings in presence of my wife...
One year ago I recognized in front of them (My wife and my bioenergetic physician) part of my sexual activities, in special sexual activities with prostitutes during my staying at Bogotá, when I was working far away from home and my incomes didn´t allow me to travel frequently to my hometown...
I felt so alone and so irritated because of my wife had promissed traveling to Bogotá to stay with me...but due to she is a very dynamic woman she used to feeling depresed after staying three or four days at Bogotá.
I tried to undesrtand her passing from a medium where she enjoyed a lot of social recognizing (Hometown) to a place where she was an anonymous person.  But this understanding was not sincere...This way I started to visit XXX video rooms and afterwards brothels...every time I was trying to increasing pleasure carried out it to a different level....
Anyway everything started at hometown where my first strong sexual experience was with a shemale...
My first love relationship was with a 15 years old girl, I was 19 years old...I felt so depressed when she finished with me...I was full of rage...with a very low self -esteem..I knew the first sexual touchings with her and I have been very selfish all my live...so I started to depending on it...When everything was over (One year later) I promissed myself I would never hurt someone else...
I took the blame over me for this failure.
Time went by and  my wound didn´t heal....I couldn´t forgiving my self...So that having sex with a tansexual appeared in front of me as an option to allievating my painful...
It had been on my mind but my religious believings had acted like a barrier...I had fought with God...My faith was broke...I had nothing to lose....
I fell to the abism...16 years of my life walking into dakness...I was near to lost my wife...It was so painful but I saw a light...I started to recognize my illness..
Still today comes to my mind some situations that steal my peace...But i will not surround..I have seen a light...slaauk
To shed light to the problem, to recognize the problem helps a lot...
See you...